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Life in LockDown

Life in LockDown

Three weeks in, not a sign of hope, well at least not in my head, all we have is a constant increase in people dying from the virus, I cannot sometime process it all. I have switched off from listening to news as best I can, only the minor tiny elements scratch my conscious, as I know they will cause me some anxiety spike later if I let them sit there and fester. I try and make myself work throughout the day even if it is on something with no apparent reason or need, they are all distractions, as is typing this update here. The continuous and monotonous hand washing and checking my temperature and self-monitoring as to was that a dry cough, was that a sneeze, am I wheezy, it is all a complete time monster. It eats away at your soul as you try and make some sort of peace in your own headspace to ensure that you have made it through another day, for how long this continues, sure we have the official lines, but, that is merely to stop the contagion, it will still be around after 6 months, and for me, immune suppressed due to my Crohns disease, what, what will the answer be, a injection to make me safe, but that is not likely for 18months, perhaps longer. I just hope I can stay the course and keep the ship that is me on a straight course, and not venture to near the rocks of depression, disappear and doom.

Is this what life as become

Last night I had a melt down, I could not calm myself at all, I kept thinking that I had a sore throat, this finally left me when I fell asleep and fitful night once again lay on the lounge floor for fear of catching this diease. This morning I awoke to the fear that I have lost my taste and smell, I keep testing myself, the truth of it that I am anxious beyond the belief. I don’t know why I am trying to rationalise my behaviour. I have had no contact with no one for weeks, apart from my wife who came back from Thailand, and I cannot help think had she got it. Although its been over 7 days in fact it has been nearly 9 days, and she has no symptons. I am fearful that I have contracted it from touching something that is infected and I have not washed it off my hands. Oh God, why will this fear not leave me. I am driving myself mad, I am simply going over the same fears constantly and constantly. I just want this to go I want some calm in my life. I am fed up of this constant spiral, it is like a coil that is tightend and untightended.

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The Need to Amuse

The Need to Amuse

Parents these days, hell bent on providing their off spring with a constant stream of entertainment, activities and outlets for them to engage. So that literally every waking moment, contains something. I dare say as we approach the weekend, a lot of you on here, will have to become the unpaid entertainer, taxi, provider of fun. A sort of modern day jester, to keep the siblings entertained and god forbid stave off the dreaded! An emotion mood, whose mere word carries the fear to your soul. I refer to the dreaded state of Boredom. Well I have a theory, I am 48 and I think I am fairly well adjusted, I can recall with complete clarity huge chunks of boredom, hour upon hour of being so tediously, out of my head, raged with an emotional wave of having not a thing to do. But was it a bad thing, I did for the most part discover the joy of reading, of discovering new things, of discovering Tolkien, Perry Rhodan – we are talking late 70’s here well before I discovered the joy of technology. Like the Apple II, or a Commodore VIC20. So is it so wrong to be BORED?

Stranger Things – Season 3 is coming

Stranger Things – Season 3 is coming

It was a slow burn for me, but, I have managed to get through series 1 of this epic slice of beautifully crafted modern story telling in the sort of horror/science fiction style of the era it is set. There is a massive slice or overwheleming feel of the 80’s from the wonderful dulcit tones of the score, which has either borrowed music from the era, or, has been wondefully crafted, on what sounds like, some serious Dave Smith Prohepts range of synths, with some crazy sweeps and sounds that simply just take you back to, what for me was my childhood. I found this little beauty on

Link 1 – Spotify https://open.spotify.com/album/0CTCk1eshEadFqZ4NBfe9N

Link 2 – https://music.amazon.co.uk/artists/B01KPZ52WA?ref=dm_sh_cd54-04a3-dmcp-7a7b-d623e&musicTerritory=GB&marketplaceId=A1F83G8C2ARO7P

Link 3 – https://music.apple.com/gb/album/stranger-things-vol-1-a-netflix-original-series-soundtrack/1142771412

Sci Fi – 50’s style

Sci Fi – 50’s style

It never ceases to amaze me that given the literally millions of dollars spent on the latest spectacular science fiction films or films of fantasy that are delivered to us as consumers year on year, there seems to be a real lack of story telling, and the reliance at all angles for better thrills and spills, it seems, that we have in the age of technology being king, become slaves, to its relentless and continuing consumption of the art. The art of story telling. Human being’s love stories, but it seems that the modern film and science fiction industry makes a B line for the CGI and CCI at every turn, to, try and lure us into the miss belief that we are infact getting better stories, and better story telling, from their output. The truth of this we are not, and I find it interesting that I constantly go back to watching and viewing films and content from the 30’s, 40’s, 50’s 60’s and some 70’s, although we are really pushing it once we get here, as of course, this was the start of the undoing, this is when a certain gold human like robot and his white dustbin compardre really beckoned the start of the change. Any way the real find for me was this great blog site which I have linked here, it is well worth a read. It is well worth looking up some of these films, so of which you can watch at your leisure on You Tube. http://classicscifi.blogspot.com/2013/02/the-manster.html

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Albelton 10 or Reaper

I am reviewing my needs of a DAW, and whether these two offer similar or different options to my requirements. The one obvious issue is price, Albelton is far more expensive than Reaper. But does this cost mean less hassle in use, or, is Reaper a better option all round, and also cheaper. The next couple of weeks we will go through the build, the setup and the exasperation and hopeful success of the setup as we being the journey.

Hello world!

Hello world!

Hi this site is all about my eclectic likes, it will also act as a platform for me to launch my YouTube channel off. Inspired by others of the niche genre that I so dearly love. It will also act as an outlet for a lot of my creativity, or destructive and peculiar nature. Lets see what happens.

If you are after the wonderfully entertaining musing of the Big Finish Audio review site they have move to their new home of https://www.theatreofmymind.com I am sure you can catch up with all that is going on in the world of Audio Theater on there.

For now give me time, and this site will grow and flourish and hopefully there will be something on here from time to time that will grab your attention and interest.